And I’m not so certain that I’m not getting sick. My muscles ache like I just walked 6 marathons and pulled an acre of weeds…
I most definitely didn’t.
Sometimes this being a single mom thing is tough… not always. Tonight? Definitely.
But I think I got all the vomit off the ceiling…
The biggest obstacle in my life is my 24/7 debilitating anxiety… my second biggest obstacle? The depression that follows close on the anxiety’s heels.
I am barely hanging on today… please send lots of virtual hugs and healing energy… all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry…
11 Things Others Don’t Realize You Are Doing Because Of Your High Functioning Anxiety
Several years ago a movie came out that changed my life… and, don’t laugh… that movie was The Runaway Bride with Julia Roberts.
I know, I know… it’s stupidly silly and overly dramatic but it had one really good point… that the female main character didn’t have any idea what she liked (to eat, to do, to watch) because she had never taken the time to figure it out, she’d always just gone along with what the people in her life told her she liked… especially the men.
And THIS is the story of my life.
But after watching this movie, I realized that I, like Julia Roberts’ character, had no idea how I liked my eggs… or anything else for that matter… and that it was time for me to figure it out.
And, after this movie, things definitely changed.
Only a little bit at first… I tried every way I could possibly think of to eat eggs and I eventually figured out how I really like them (scrambled with cheese and hot sauce or over easy with toast for dipping, also with hot sauce)… and, although it’s taken me a few more years, I’ve come to realize that I should incorporate these same methods into figuring out how I like my sex as well.
So, here I am… moving past the days of sex being about whether or not the man I am with orgasms and into the days where it’s all about how much pleasure I can experience.
Now, don’t get me wrong, it is not all about me… I am GGG all the way… it’s just now I’m making sure that it’s at least partially about my pleasure as well.
Please wish me luck… and lots fun… because if I don’t take care of my own needs, who will!